Shalialove

happy new year to all of you out there, it really has been a wonderful year which has also gone by way too fast in my opinion. I hope that those of you I know have a fantastic New Year's Eve with your friends or family

happy new year again from me

many are familiar with having a family, a father and a mother. but what if one of them has not earned the right to call themselves parents.

I now have that case with my father, he has let me down so many times that I can't count it anymore. and two weeks ago he crossed that invisible line in front of me, so it's completely unforgivable.

my father has never really acknowledged my feelings, and here back on November 6, my father celebrated a small birthday with the family, so it was me, my two stepbrothers, my sister-in-law, my stepmother and the family's four children (the oldest is soon 10 years old) I don't quite remember how the genealogy started but my whole family was going on holiday to Tenerife.

they sat and talked about that holiday most of the time, and it was nothing to do with me going on holiday. I was totally invisible, it broke my heart completely and I didn't say anything to them, I cried inside myself.

when it was time to return home, I plucked up the courage and asked my father when he drove me home (I don't have a car myself) I asked him how much he and his wife had given to come on the trip, he hesitated a lot and replied that it had given a little over 14,000 Danish coins in total. The next thing he said blew me away.

he would have asked me if I wanted to go on the trip, but he was afraid that I will have ruined my finances because of the coming month of Christmas presents and birthday presents. if I should have gone along, I should have paid a little over 7000 Danish coins for myself, it wasn't like my own father offered to pay so I could come along on the trip, so I should only have thought about pocket money for myself.

but no, my father doesn't think that far. so when I got home to myself there I cried for several hours. my mother was totally furious and my friend almost exploded with rage. I never ask for money help from in father as he just wants to say "can't your mother or grandmother help you?" just that alone can make my mother furious with him.

the day after my family had come to Tenerife, I received a message from my father that they had arrived safely, just that message alone made me cry again, and my friend found it difficult to cheer me up .

since then I have cried several times, my father does not understand how much he has hurt me, he thinks everything is okay when it is not

well then it was my turn to get Corona virus, so I am in isolation at the home of my friend Anita, who was also affected by Corona at the same time as me. we are both okay and in a good mood, but of course tired and with a lot of headaches

Hi

this is just as info for you all, my pc is dying. the battery is swollen inside my pc, which is really bad, I do not know when that battery will burst, I got it examined by those I bought my pc from. and they say that it may take 1-3 years before it is completely finished, but I dare not wait for the battery to burst, so my mother is in the process of helping me find a new PC and talk to someone I can borrow money from